went blogsurfing for awhile, found that most people's blogs that i read are already complaining about their marks. and im still getting called up because of my homeworks...it's not that i dont understand what is going on. i understand perfectly well. it's just that i dont really put my heart into homeworks. poeple who know me well enough(not that there might be anyone...) should know that i can get things pretty fast, provided that i'm not half asleep. but when you look into my bag...sorry la...alot of half done worksheets.

great...the LJ week is over...monday start lessons again...and i havent evevn do anything yet...for the past two weeks. and i have a feeling i'm not gonna do anything tomorrow...unless i can get out the house, away from the com, and other distractions, and have someone to push me to do homework. if not i wont do anything and a whole day would be wasted again...grahhh...diez...i'm just not the mugging type of person lorr...more of the goof of unless pressurized type...

am i a sucker for animals? guess so..

went school abit earlier to do class deco. kept getting call to do the stupid high high places cos fifi dun want to go up. haha. shall call you fifi sophia. haha. then took some pics.



hmm...went to kampong glam today...quite ok la...cos we skipped training. haha. not our fault ok! reach school so late alrd...no point going.haha. anyways, we went erm...into this mosque, then the guide was explaining to us the five pillars of faith( i think ) when suddenly this guy came and explained...very erm...confusing...haha...but very kind of the guy la. haha. then had short break and jinyu and liangzi wanted to buy these small bottles of perfume, so me liangzi jinyu yifan tessa and muzhi went to the shop and they tried so many diff types...haha...actually a few la...haha. but then in the end jy lz and yf each bought the same type. haha. then went to the malay heritage museum, watched some cultural thing..some wedding...haha.then got one part they say the bride and the groom hook the pinkie together, cos they still shy or something. haha. then inside the museum, tsai and sop was hooking the pinkie...then tsai was complaining very pain.haha. loser. haha. then suddenly deb and amanda start saying our class alot of les...cos so many ppl holding hands. haha. forgot who say it started with me and lz...wtf...haha.
us on the bus. haha

went to Balestier hill pri. haha. tagged along with jinyu liangzi and lydia to cmp. >.< too lazy to say what happened...dont feel like typing...hahaha. pic at erm...hmm...have no idea where...in the school lah...ahaha

liangzi hidding her face for no reason...haiz...can see jinyu behind...hahaha

Acoustic Guitar Fire on Steel, Tapping by Jeff Williams :)

seriously...i feel like it is alot easier to cry nowadays...just think of something, and tears just start flowing. i know i always look relaxed and calm and cool...that's because the only time i can forget about most stuff is when i'm engrossed in something, or my mind is occupied with something...why the heck do you think i'm always reading? so that i can get my mind off all the pressing stuff...(yea i know...no wonder i'm always passing up homework late...). but i think my mind is getting resistant to books...last time i can just read and not even think of anything else, not getting distracted even when anything happens, like my dog barking like mad, or someone calling me...but now, i just feel like snapping back at anyone who disturbs me. and if anything gets messed up, i just feel like throwing something at the wall, or punching the wall or something, vent my anger...(i punched the metal railing before...hurts like hell) but i cant, cos then i will get into more trouble and then i really really feel like doing something, hurt myself so that i can divert the anger to the injured part. heck, i feel like just getting into some accident or something.. i dont know...

why the hell are we placed on earth only to die about 60 years later?(if we are even lucky to get there) save up your money, and people say you're tight-fisted. spend your money, and people say you wasting your parents efforts. and wasting away our time, like if you're reading this, i think you just wasted...i dont know...alot of seconds...

my life is fcuking screwed...thats all i can say now

Nice Acoustic Guitar Tapping

this song suits what i'm sort of feeling now...

Title: Numb
Artist: Linkin Park

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be

at last. blasted snag is over. no PBs, totally screwed up the entire meet luh...having killer headache right now but who care. gonna sleep the whole morning through luh. liangzi in KL, no one to sms to. grrr...gonna die this whole year.

thrid session of SNAG, seriously man, i think i'm not gonna survive through swimming till next year...no PBs so far...and best chance of PB was just now's relay, cos i always go faster for relay than individual. but still no PB. shiet. and my hand is still pain...since wednesday...and i cant find aunty willy...i guess my heart aint in swimming at all...i'm already think of what CCA to take in RJ...if i can make it through sec 3, then sec 4...

i love these two songs...ablsolutely. cos it is one of the few songs that have meanings and messages...to me at least.

Title: Runaway Love
Artists: Ludacris feat. Mary J Blige

Yeah, and it go a little something *scratch* like this

[Mary J Blige]
Runaway Love(love, love, love, love) Runaway Love(love, love, love, love)
Runaway Love(loooove) Runaway Love(love
Runaway Love(ooooo) Runaway Love(ooooo)
Runaway Love(mmmmm) Runaway Love(runaway love)

[Verse 1 - Ludacris]
Now little Lisa is only 9 years old
She’s trying to figure out why the world is so cold
Why she’s all alone and they never met her family
Mamas always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missing and nobody will listen
Mama is on drugs getting high up in the kitchen
Bringing home men at different hours of the night
Starting with some laughs--usually ending in a fight
Sneak into her room while her mamas knocked out
Trying to have his way and little Lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her
Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get some clothes and pack
She says she’s bout to run away and never come back.

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [x8]

[Verse 2 - Ludacris]
Little Nicole is only 10 years old
She’s steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
Why she’s not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she making up excuses
Bleeding on the inside, crying on the out
Its only one girl really knows what she about
Her name is lil Stacy and they become friends
Promise that they always be tight til the end
Until one day lil Stacy gets shot
A drive by bullet went straight up on her block
Now Nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but some get some clothes and pack
She says she’s bout to run away and never come back.

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [x8]

[Verse 3 - Ludacris]
Little Erica is eleven years old
She’s steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops X to get rid of all the pain
Cause she’s having sex with a boy who’s sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she’s in love
So there’s no protection he’s using no glove
Never thinking bout the consequences of her actions
Living for today and not tomorrows satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowing her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She says she’s about to run away and never come back.

[Mary J Blige]
Runaway Love(runaway) Runaway Love(runaway love babe)
Runaway Love(don't keep runin girl) Runaway Love(aaaaahaah)
Runaway Love(runaway, runaway) Runaway Love(runaway, runaway)
Runaway Love(runnin, runin, runin,runin) Runaway Love(aaaaaaahhh runin)
Running(x3)
Runaway Love, Runaway love
Runaway Love, Runaway Love
Runaway Love, Runaway Love
Runaway Love, Runaway Love

Don't you keep on runnin away
Don't you keep on runnin away
i know how you feel
ive been there
i was runnin away too
I will run away with you
I will run away with you
Runnin runnin runnin away love

run away run away love
dont keep runin away
i'll run away with you
if you want me too
La Ahhahhhaha

[Ludacris]
Yeah, I can only imagine what you're going through, ladies
Sometimes I feel like running away myself
So do me a favor right now and close your eyes
And picture us running away together and
When we come back everything is gonna be OK

(whisper) Open your eyes.


yea..this song makes me think..next time you grumble bout your family...think bout it for a second...you are lucky to have your family with you. yea...i kinda dont make sense yea? haha

ok...2nd song

Title: Stay the Same
Artist: Joey McIntyre

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change

I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside (ohh-oooh)
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself (ohh-oooh)
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through

Ohh-wooahh-ohh
Heeeeeyyy

Don't you ever wish (ohhhhh yeah)
You were someone else
You were meant to be (you were meant to be)
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say (Ohh-wooahh-ohh)
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself (love yourself)
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same (stay the same)
'Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change (change)

No, there's nothing 'bout you I would change . . .
Don't change . . .



mhm...love this song...alot alot alot

well, thats all folks! haha


oh yea...CHEN LIANGZI! YOU BETTER GET PLENTY OF REST AND EAT! EAT!

to go or not to go..that is the question... no seriously, that is the question! go sch tomorrow, later keep sneezing. don't go, have to go doctor to get MC. grahh.. spent like 20 min in the toilet luh....go in come out go in come out...

i'm dead, dead, dead. so bloody dead. how the heck were we suppose to do the freaking maths qns in 50 mins? nearly cried luh...cos i never ever not finish the paper. failed, yes i have failed before. but at least i did all the qns right?! and somemore we had to write on foolscap, so imagine how many times we had to write our names. write until lost count. the waste time writing somemore.