seriously...i feel like it is alot easier to cry nowadays...just think of something, and tears just start flowing. i know i always look relaxed and calm and cool...that's because the only time i can forget about most stuff is when i'm engrossed in something, or my mind is occupied with something...why the heck do you think i'm always reading? so that i can get my mind off all the pressing stuff...(yea i know...no wonder i'm always passing up homework late...). but i think my mind is getting resistant to books...last time i can just read and not even think of anything else, not getting distracted even when anything happens, like my dog barking like mad, or someone calling me...but now, i just feel like snapping back at anyone who disturbs me. and if anything gets messed up, i just feel like throwing something at the wall, or punching the wall or something, vent my anger...(i punched the metal railing before...hurts like hell) but i cant, cos then i will get into more trouble and then i really really feel like doing something, hurt myself so that i can divert the anger to the injured part. heck, i feel like just getting into some accident or something.. i dont know...